Nothing without you

I know I am nothing without you. With all that darkness that lies within me.. all that negativity. . If left alone. I will consume my own self. It is you who keeps me going. It has always bewn yiu. Because in my entire reality I am truly Nothing.

Nothing really..

Nowadays being at home made me realize that its not so bad being a house wife. Except for the timely fits of depression and uselessness that hot you.. you get to pray and be close to Allah.. you get enough sleep.. you get to cook in a good mood and really do a lot of things that you usually don't fibd the time to.

But then I get so depressed and I feel useless. I want yo have money of my own that I can spend. I don't like asking N for money just so that I can shop around. I believe its his hard earned and I cannot bring myself into spending it.on petty things that I like in the shops. With my own salary its my own moneh and I don't feel guilty spending it thoughtlessly.

And you know.. Jon Snow is back but I am still waiting for the series to complete.  I hate watching an episode and then wait the entire week for the next one.

And I don't want to write the finishing lines here so I would just say I really like the hampster in the pic. Its adorable and I have a test and interview on Friday. Pray I get through.